Sunday, October 19, 2008

Missing home !!

I'm sorry I have not updated in a few days but I have not felt much like writing. Bridgett and I went to Jinja, spent the night and had a great time at the Amani Baby Cottage. We spent two days with the kiddos. Yes Bridgett picked out about twelve children that she knows for sure God has called her to be mommy to. Each time I visit the cottage becomes more special. The kids have started to remember me. They come running now when they see me at the gate screaming Auntie, Auntie. I think if I could stay at the cottage full time I would be able to handle the loneliness I am feeling.
I don't want to sound woe is me but that is how I'm feeling. I miss home and my kids so much my heart aches and yet I have this amazing blessing sitting right beside me. I know if God calls you to it He will see you through it but WOW does it hurt.
I have never been away from my children for so long and just knowing I have the possibility of two or three more weeks makes me sick to even think about.
I promised I would never be one to complain once I got here, I knew it was a process and that was ok......well I had not experienced this kind of loneliness before. It's like being alone in a crowded room. I miss America, my husband, kids, family, american food, the smells, the sounds, driving my car, all the things we take for granted everyday....that's what I miss.
Well it won't be long and Bennett and I will be home, each passing day brings us one day closer to the day we step off that plane and onto American soil.
Keep us lifted in prayer our court date is on Wednesday for our verbal ruling. Most importantly please keep Scott and the kids lifted up, they are going through just as much as I am only in a different way. Also please pray for safe travels for Bridgett, she returns home Wednesday evening. I love and miss you all.


Shauna said...

Sherry, My heart aches for you - I can not imagine being without my kiddos like that.

As I was reading I wanted to share with you something I just learned at Women of Faith. The speaker was telling us that there was a research study of the brain done that she found very interesting - she said that the fear/anxiety part of the brain and the gratitude/thankful part of the brain could not work simultaneously. So God showed her - Philippians 4:6-7 "Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, shall guard your hearts and your minds in Jesus Christ."

So when you start to get consumed with the anxiety of this process start listing all that you are thankful for and kick that attack right out of you!

I was just in awe of this amazing tool God has given us - I have found it so encouraging in my life and I thought I would pass it on to you. We will be praying for you every night until you are reunited with you WHOLE family!

Anonymous said...

Sherry baby I miss you sooo much just knowing you are so far away and I hate that you are feeling pain of missing your family
We are all here waiting for you and Little Bennett
Prayers continue for speedy approval
I love you
Aunt Doris

Anonymous said...

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Glenda McGough said...

"SherryBaby", I am crying as I write this. The only thing that I have to compare (which is no comparison), is when I left Chase when he was 3 mos. old for a 10 day vacation/convention. Remember, I told you how much I cried, couldn't even face anyone because my eyes were so red. I am sure you would trade the 10 day holiday for these 3 wks plus in a second. I am constantly lifting you up in prayer. The good thing, besides that sweet little baby boy, is that your kids are going to appreciate you so much when you get back here and will be PERFECT little angels for the rest of their lives.....right??

Haley is doing fine now, went to school. I took her food and more socks just now for the game. Papa, Hannah, Kennedy, Grant and I are going to the game. I have a lot of people praying for her also. Besides, she has me and MiMi praying a LOT!

We missed you and Bridgett yesterday at Colin's BD party here. Just wasn't the same, besides I had no one to ask about the "other" gifts. You know, the calls from Target asking what to get. Scott wouldn't have a clue. After I get back from the game, will email the pictures for you and Bridgett.

Miss you very much, Baby! You can do this. We are always with you in thought and prayer!

Much Love and Blessings,

xmanfamily said...

My prayers go out to you and your family both far and wide! I became a reader of your blog through my dear friend Shauna.

I have two adopted children though not from overseas I know the joy your heart feels! I will be praying for your court date this week and hope that it brings wonderful news!

God Bless you all!